It was relaxing start to the day and kept us connected. Our routine before Evony was he got up, took out the dog and made me coffee and brought it to me in bed and we would both sit in the bed, talk, drink our coffee and watch the morning news. He doesn't have to go to work until like 12:00 noon. When Evony came in the picture, it started out slowly but now it consumes his every waking hour, except when he's at work. First of all, let me say, we've been happily married 35 years! Yes, 35 years. It took over and he's not the person he was. Hurray for these guys!! To me, they realized the problem and nipped it in the bud. I had read before of people playing Evony in the group we were in that they were quitting because it was taking too much time out of their 'real life'. I have plenty to keep me busy and didn't need Evony. So since I did try Evony, I do see what's going on with the game and know what it can do to your life. Well, very quickly I realized it will take over your life. As a matter of fact, I decided to try Evony myself since he seemed to like it so much. Evony started out as a 'fun' game that my husband wanted to try. OMG, I feel like after reading these posts I've been writing them myself. I want my old life back.but then I reflect on what I want back? I'm not sure it was that good to begin with, but at least we talked to each other and did things together.I'm rambling. I was feeling healthier but lately not so much. Not a great way to keep friends or make new ones. I mean, what's the point? I don't even feel any emotion towards him, it's shifted to myself. I'm so disgusted with my life and myself for doing nothing of value with it. I don't even know if he knows what the truth is anymore. I don't have any idea what he honestly thinks or feels about anything anymore. Unless I issue an ultimatium I don't think things will ever change.why is it up to me to initiate everything? why? why? why? I'm not enabling in an obivous way but by staying I feel like I condone his behavior. Why do men think that woman should just fit into their lives and interests? Why do men thinks that woman have no other interest than to immerse themselves into their lives? Our addicts may need help but they can change. Be strong, keep your head high, and you will perservere. While I send you my best wish that your husband wises up, I know that doesn't always happen, and so wish you and your little boy the best in a productive and happy future. I don't much like the idea of a split family, but as the son of divorced parents, I can tell you that life does go forward and your son will be just fine, especially with a strong parent there to keep him learning and growing, which I don't doubt you will. I certainly hope you are in the process of building a life for you and your son, since he matters most of all. I don't believe one person should have to "fit" into the other's lifestyle their lifestyles should fit in each other's in order for a relationship to flourish. But I must say I disagree with that frame of mind your husband commented on, being a man myself. I can't imagine the feelings your are experiencing regarding your situation right now. (he was talking about a friend of mine I haven't seen in years and her boyfriend.) Don't think he realized that when applied to our situation it screams RUN! He made a comment this weekend that men don't change, if the woman is happy and can live her life within his lifestyle they will be happy. He used to make me feel so special, like nothing in the world mattered but me. I'm just tired of everything coming before me. You don't know what you have til it's gone is such the right saying but the problem is not just realizing what you've lost but the fact that you might never get it back. If this fantasy world of his that he's living in is more important than his RL one we won't be around long. I'm giving him the ultimatium soon prolly within the and his son or the game and he can forget about final fantasy when it comes out. There is only so long a person can live this way. I'm sorry $1200 a month does not pay rent, daycare, food and other bills. Were behind in our rent and on most of our bills because he's not bringing in that much money with his buisness right now. He will quit playing evony I know that for sure as Final Fantasy 14 is coming out the end of sept this year. I give up he's still playing that stupid game.
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